Friday, July 11, 2008
I am so tired of being pregnant. Why does it have to be so hard at the end? I feel like someone kicked me in the stomach, hooha and back. It takes me approximately 5 minutes to get from a seated position to standing, and then another 5 minutes to take that first step to wherever I am going. When I can finally walk I have forgotten where I am going because I have this wonderful thing they call pregnancy brain. I can't remember anything. I can't get comfortable at night, so I don't sleep well. I have to get up at least 2-3 times in the night to pee because my bladder is getting kicked every time Hayden moves. We fight over my body. He doesn't like when I sleep in a certain position, so then I am lying awake....can't get comfy. I vacuumed my house earlier and you'd think I ran a marathon. I was starving, but too tired to fix a sandwich. I think Angela was abducted my aliens and hopefully they will drop her off here in a week or two when Hayden arrives. Who have I become? I love the idea of meeting my little man, I can't wait, but damn this has been hard work. This is great birth control for me!! I don't remember being such a wiener when I was pregnant with Layla. I am glad to have one boy and one girl because this chic is DONE!! So...I have been contracting every night for the past 2 1/2 weeks. When evening comes I get uncomfortable and the pressure goes into the night. I hope and pray every night Hayden will make his grand entrance, but he's still not here yet! Why can't some of these contractions be productive. If I go to my appointment on Tuesday and nothing has changed I may go insane. It feels great to vent. I know I signed up for this, and I am soooo happy. I love being a mom...it is so wonderful and the most rewarding thing I have ever done. I never grew up thinking I'd be a stay at home mom, but I love it. Layla is truly a blessing, and I will love my Hayden too, but whoowee! I think I will be okay with being sleep deprived when he arrives! At least if I pee in bed it isn't because he kicked me and was fighting me for room!!