I am sitting here thinking about the fact that I am going to be 35 years old in 17 days. AND in a couple of months I will have a 6 year old and a 3 year old. Whoaaa! Maybe I should start using anti-wrinkle cream.
I am not the best parent ever, I make mistakes, don't we all? But thinking back to 10 years ago, I was newly married and didn't want to have kids at all. I'm not sure why, but I was the selfish and insecure career woman type. I moved to the big city, got a fun job in the optical industry and was really happy with Gary and our dogs.
The day I called all my best friends to tell them I was pregnant, they were both stunned and thrilled. From the moment I saw the two pink lines I knew I was meant to be a mom. I also knew I wanted to stay home to raise my kids. This is what I wanted from the beginning! I love my SAHM job. Even though I need wrinkle cream...haha!
The thing that amazes me is the person I have become. If I could have one wish I'd wish for every 'almost 35' year old woman to feel as I do. I think this realization is because of age. I know so many unhappy young ladies, struggling to find who they are.
It isn't about the house you live in, or the car you drive, or even the purse you carry. It is about what is on the inside. I finally get that. It took years, but I realize I can't control what people say or think about me. You know what? I am good with it!! I know what I think about myself, and that really is all that matters. I don't have to answer to the crazies...I have to answer to myself and God. I'm so thankful for a God that forgives when I mess up. I make mistakes in life and parenting, but I have help from above.
I know you are wondering the reason for this post...what is all this jibber jabber about?
It is about this bible verse that slapped me in the face at church a few weeks ago. I think it is my new favorite verse. It is about seeking to be a voice of HOPE!
You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on it's stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
Isn't that the best verse ever?
How about you? Are you where you want to be?
Are you letting your light shine?
I can tell you one thing...I couldn't do this life/parenting thing without my church and my relationship with God.