I am sitting here in my quiet, dark living room relaxing from a long but fun Friday. Friday evenings are hard for us. The hustle and bustle of the week wears on the entire family. I am happy to be sitting down in my quiet house on my comfy sofa. I am sitting here reflecting on all the things I have. My handsome husband, my adorable kiddos and the hairy dog beasts I love so much. I sit here tonight wondering how to say what I want to say without seeming greedy.
We have so much, but I know Gary and I both want more. We have a nice house with plenty of room for our family. I think of the future. I realize I should be satisfied with the home I have, and I am. I love our house. We are blessed that each kid has a room, we have an office in which Gary works every day. We have a playroom and a large backyard. I love our big kitchen and how open it is to the living room. Am I being selfish because I want more? I do want more. I want my forever house right now. We want our house now so that we can pay it off before we retire.
I want the house a few block away that I saw being built. We saw it, and we looked at it. We walked through it and Gary and I both fell in love. We felt the disappointment when the SOLD sign was placed in the yard. I realized that God had his plan for us and that house. I was good with it. God didn't want us to have that house at that time. As it turned out that was to be someone elses house.
Then a few days ago I saw that the AVAILABLE sign was miraculously back in the yard again. My heart skipped a beat. I slammed on the brakes and turned the Jeep around. I sped toward the sign in the yard to see the house was truly on the market again. Is it a sign? Well heck yes it's a sign...a for sale sign. BUT .... Are we supposed to pursue that house again? Do we put our house on the market? Or am I just being selfish and wanting something more that isn't necessary?
Tonight I will pray. Clearly I was okay when I realized that house wouldn't be ours over a month ago. I will be fine if that is the case again, but it really made me stop and think about our future and where we will be in 5 years. I know where our goals say we will be. I know what we want, but God has plans that we don't know about yet. So, for now I will just sit back and enjoy what I have. I will be thankful for the house we currently live in and the memories we are currently making. Because when it comes to making a home, the house really doesn't matter. The people do, and I love my people.
God will lead the way!